I spent my whole life mailing letters to the address tied to my missing mother, always clinging to hope—until I finally received a reply that devastated me.

“So you watched from a distance.”

She looked at the letters.

“Yes.”

“That’s not motherhood. That’s not family.”

A few envelopes were still sealed.

“No,” she said.

“It isn’t.”

That answer hit harder than an excuse would have.

I pulled another bundle closer.

A few envelopes were still sealed.

One was from three years ago.